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As her tennis shoes squeaked on the tennis court, she was practically yelling at herself in her mind. “Jeeze Jackie! What are you going to do?!? He’s getting involved with these things and you’re not stepping up! What happened to the confident Jackie I know?” “SHUT UP!” Jackie yelled as at herself other students were passing by. “What the heck are you looking at?” she yelled. As they walked away, she mumbled to herself, “Stupid freshies.” “Alright ladies!” the coach said as she blew her shiny whistle, “That’s enough for today! See you all next week!”

As Jackie walked to the locker room, her best friend Lindy came, and walked right beside her. “May I help you Lindy?” asked Jackie. “Okay so listen to my depression if you love me. Josh and I are pretty…. “Blah” right now” she air quoted. “What in the 21^st century do you mean by blah?” Jackie stated and walked away. “Gosh, are you grumpy much?” Lindy mumbled under her breath.

     Jackie took a shower and changed into her True Religion jeans and striped Ralph Lauren crew neck tee. As her thoughts kept running on, Jackie walked to her car mumbling, “I really need some freaking Pho”, then jumped into her black coupe heading for Pho Phat 2. “…..see you’re like a ghost”, she sang along in her car.

Jackie arrived 8 minutes later to her favorite restaurant: Pho Phat 2. As she got out the car, she heard her some guy calling out her name. When she turned around, nothing or nobody was there, then she kept walking to the beat of her black T-strapped, Steve Maddens. Inside, she spotted her 3 best friends: Richard, Peter, and Lindy. She secretly had a crush on Richard but she never told anyone. “HEY JACKIE!!!” they all said at the same time. “Hey guys” Jackie said, smiling her pearly whites. “Hi Richard” she blushed. “Hey” he smiled.

Richard was wearing some Pigeon SB’s, sagged skinny dark denims, blue suspenders, and a blue LRG shirt. “What’s cooking good looking?” Peter asked as he put his arm around her. “Ugh, relax and get a grip. I’m not going out with you. That’s seriously nasty.” Jackie replied in disgust. Richard got up and said, “Hey guys, chill. Peter, stop and sit the heck down. She’s to pretty enough for you.” After he said that, laughter erupted from the group of friends next to them, while Jackie stood there blushing as red as a tomato.

“Are you guys ready to order?” asked the waiter. “Uh, yes we are” replied Richard. “I’ll have a Chicken Pho” said Jackie. “Oh! Me too,” said Richard. They stared at each other for a while, letting there eyes linger, then turned away blushing and smiling. “Ooooo, looks like we’ve got ourselves the new couple of 2009!” yelled Alvin. “Oh gosh Alvin, please shut up and let them be” stated Lindy. “It’s their business and we have nothing to do with their thoughts of liking anyone, whatsoever.” Jackie leaned towards Lindy and whispered, “Thank you!” and Lindy responded with a wink.

As Lindy and Alvin ordered, Richard and Jackie secretly wrapped their legs around each other’s calves. When the group was finished with their Pho, they paid, got up, and left. “So… Jackie, is it alright if I walk with you to your car? I just want to talk to you for a sec.” “Uh, sure” Jackie said happily. While they were walking to the car, Richard’s heart was pounding. Man, how is she going to react when I tell her I’ve still been doing drugs? I promised her I was going to stop. His mind was starting to get heavy and he felt himself starting to sweat. We’re at the car… It’s time to tell her.

“Um… Jackie, there’s something we need to talk about. Or well, no. Something I need to tell you. Please, I’m sorry and don’t get mad!” “Uh, depends what it is Richard. What’s up though?” Jackie started getting curious as Richard scratched his head and started tearing up. “RICHARD. WHAT’S WRONG?!” Jackie yelled. I can’t do this. I can’t tell her. But… I have too! “Jackie… I broke our promise. The promise about me stopping drugs. I’m still on dope. I’m so sorry Jackie… I…” “NO, YOU MADE A PROMISE TO ME AND BROKE IT. YOU’RE A DISSPOINTMENT RICHARD. I CAN’T BELIEVE YOU.” Jackie yelled. “I’m sorry. I’m trying to stop… But it’s so hard. I think I’m…” “You’re what?” “I’m, I’m…” Richard stuttered, “I’M IN LOVE WITH YOU.” Jackie was surprised and had no idea what to say because of the fact she was filled with love and hatred at the same time.

“If you’re really in love with me Richard, you’ll quit it; FOR GOOD. I’m not going to fall in love with a crack head Richard. If I’m going to be yours, we can’t be together right now with your addiction. It’s doing some serious damage to you Richard. If you can’t even notice that, then see how stupid dope has made you? Don’t even talk to me while you’re doing this. I can’t even stand looking at you anymore!” Jackie turned around and ran back to her car, leaving Richard alone in the cold rain.

First he promises me that he’d stop, second he breaks it, and third… HE’S IN LOVE WITH ME. When Jackie went into her car, she left the Pho restaurant area immediately without giving Lindy and Alvin a goodbye. She turned on the radio to 106.1 KMEL and started crying as she was driving. …I never knew such a day could come. And I never knew such a love, could be inside of one… As the music continued on, she kept crying and crying.

When Jackie got home, she ran straight up to her room and began her AP homework. “For the love of cookies!” her phone rang. New text message!  She thought. I wonder who it’s from. “New text message from: Lindy. “Chicka, wsup? Where you at and what happened to Richard? He seems so upset.” Sigh…… Jackie replied, “Richard is still doing drugs Lindy. He promised me he’d stop but he didn’t! He seriously broke our promise and it freaked me out. Like it really made no sense to me! Making a promise to me, then breaking it.” Then after Jackie hit “send”, she put down her phone, and got up to walk to the kitchen. Her phone rang. It was Richard! …If I’m afraid to love, If I’m afraid of love, I want to know, Cause if I’m afraid to love, Then how will ever find the one? How will I ever find the one? How will I ever find the one? Jackie just stared at her phone the whole time letting it ring and not picking it up. “One new voicemail” her phone said. “Hey Jackie, it’s me, Richard. I’m here in front of your house. I really need to talk to you.” *Click. Oh my gosh. What does he want now? Say what? “Oh baby, I miss you so much!” Ugh, he disgusts me so much. 

Jackie thought of it as being considerate when she walked to the front door, ready to open up the door right when she had second thoughts about opening it. Whatever, I’ll just open the freaking door. When she opened the door, Richard’s attention was on the ground, and then he slowly picked his own head up to look at her. He smiled gently with his puppy dog eye, then Jackie’s eyes started watering. “Hey Jackie…” Richard said quietly. “Hey, uh why’d you come here?” Jackie asked. “I seriously need to talk to you. I’m really sorry Jackie. I know I broke our promise but I cannot stand not seeing you, or being there with you for a second. It kills me and it hurts so bad…” Aw, he’s just the sweetest thing! But hold up for a sec. He broke our promise and everything and oh my gosh. He’s still DOING DRUGS. Not good at all. “Richard, do you know how much it hurts to know you’re doing this to yourself? It’s tearing you apart. You seem so different. You’re not that strong, built, athletic, sweet guy I used to know. Now, you’re all boring and just not the same. It hurts to see you like this and everything. It just doesn’t affect you, but other feelings, AND that my feelings toward you may change… Although I seriously don’t want to stop.” Richard’s eyes started watering and he cried with no sound… Just completely soundless. Jackie took a step forward to Richard, wrapped her arms around him, and cried with him in the pouring rain.

          The next day after Jackie’s tennis practice, she saw Alvin walking towards the quad with something in a Ziploc bag. What in the world is that? Jackie got curious and followed Alvin to the quad. It’s Richard! What the heck are they doing? She thought to herself. Jackie sees Alvin taking out a Ziploc full of DRUGS. Jackie runs away to her car as soon as she sees that very corruptive scene and cries as she drove home. When she got home, she went straight to the kitchen for some low carb ice cream. As Jackie starts to eat the chocolate ice cream, she hears her phone ringing. She looks at her phone: “Call from… Richard”. That boy is freaking dead in my book. She picks up the phone and was all quiet. “Hey,” “Hey,” she says back. “What’s up Jackie?” “You know what’s up Richard. You freaking lied AGAIN.” She yelled. “Lied about what?! I didn’t lie about anything!” “Oh please Richard, save it for someone you’ll listen to and whatever.” She hung up, cried, and started eating again.

          After school the next day, Jackie headed straight for her car. All of a sudden, something covered her face and all she could see was black. She muffled and screamed but the only thing she could hear was herself breathing. “Shut up, and listen to me. Once you see me, do not scream or anything. Listen to me closely.” The mysterious voice disappeared and the blackness went away. She turned to the passenger seat, and she look directly at Alvin. “Alright, listen to me.” He stated to her. “Do not keep snooping around or whatever. Just don’t interfere. If you do, I’ll kill both you, and Richard. You understand?” Is this the same Alvin I know? What the heck? “What’s wrong with you Alvin, why are you doing this to me? What the hell is your problem? I mean, seriously! What’s your problem with Richard? He hasn’t done anything to you! HE’S YOUR BESTFRIEND! JEEZE.” Jackie started crying. She looked at Alvin with so much disgust.

          “Okay, I’ll tell you why. I’m just really jealous of him. I mean, look at all this popularity stuff. Jackie, I think I’m in love with you. Since even… Before Richard started liking you! But anyway, whatever. I’m planning on killing him, and if you stop him, I guess I’ll have to kill you too.” Jackie was so surprised, she just let Alvin open the door, and walk away. She had no clue what to do, but to just keep snooping around and find some way to stop him.

          2 days later, Jackie couldn’t sleep and took a midnight walk around his neighborhood. Richard was out taking a walk to the corner of Love Boulevard for his own reason. As Jackie was walking, she saw a car with a guy and a girl together with a gun. Jackie looked more closely and saw it was Alvin and Lindy! Oh god, I think Lindy snitched on her to Alvin. Stab backing breeze. She followed the car slowly to Love Boulevard and saw Richard. When the car was just about to stop in front of Richard, Jackie ran in front of him and got shot. Her eyes and everything else turned black.

          Richard saw the car drive away and dropped on his knees. He looked at Jackie; his darling, his baby, his everything. He’s done his best to protect her, but he guessed it wasn’t enough. “My baby, Jackie…” Richard started crying as soon as he saw blood flowing and called 911. “911, I have a problem. My friend has been shot. 123 Love Boulevard, please come quickly. It didn’t take a long for the police and everyone to come over since they were close to the little rich town.

          They took Jackie and Richard went into the hospital with her. When they took Jackie into the emergency room, he stayed in the waiting room with his parents, and Jackie’s parents, then explained the whole story to them. “I’m sorry everyone… I think this is my entire fault… It’s because I had to meet up with them! I ruined EVERYTHING!” Richard started crying and started a tantrum. “Um, Jackie Granadosin’s family and friends?” the nurse asked. Jackie’s parents stood up and walked to the nurse and said, “Yes?” “I think it would be best to tell everyone at the same time.” So when her parents sat down, the nurse made her announcement, “I’m sorry to say… Jackie has passed away, due to the cost of the amount of blood. She’s lost to much to keep living and it was too late to put more blood in.” Groaning, moaning, and grieving has been put in the room. So much people crying it took a while to have everyone calm down.

          It was Jackie’s family who went in first. When they came out, everyone was crying again. It was so hard for everyone to look at her. When Richard went in. he ran to Jackie, and started thinking about all the things they’ve been through. “My God Jackie, I’m so sorry… This is my entire fault.” Richard couldn’t handle it anymore. He ran out the room, out the hospital, to the parking lot, and into his car. He drove to Alvin’s house and started cursing so much.

          Richard had second thoughts about it. He knew this was wrong. This whole revenge thing was. The only way he would get his revenge, is by putting them in Juvenile Detention. So Richard drove over to the police station and reported the whole thing. Officers agreed and said they’d be in court by next month. “Till then, Alvin and Lindy, till then.”

 Richard was in mourning for a long time. He found nothing the same and it was a pity to see him live the rest of his life like this. He didn’t want to go through therapy because he knew that it’ll only make everything worse. It’ll make him think about it more and more, but that’s what he didn’t want. To keep mourning about the love of his life the rest of the years he’s on earth… And the many years that’ll lead into eternity.

Richard had a hard time the next day. To wake up morning after morning and remembering everything, hurt him. “I think the best thing to do is to move” he said to himself. “I do love Jackie, I really do. But this is ridiculous! I can’t stick to her. I’m only 16 for God’s sake.” So Richard planned out the whole thing and told his parents he’ll be moving to San Francisco, California as soon as possible, and live with his collage-aged cousins. Richard was completely happy, yet torn that he’d have to leave his home town, Seattle, Washington; the place where his memories of Jackie would be left.

The next day (day of Richard’s flight), Richard’s mom gave him a little lecture before he left. “Oh, my anak! You’re getting so old! Soon, I’ll be old and wrinkly. Take care of yourself anak, and please, focus on your studies more then anything else. We want the best for you, and we don’t want you to screw it up. Not just for us, but for yourself too. We love you Richard. Please take care of yourself and try not to keep your mind on her TO MUCH. No matter how much you’d want too. It’s hard to resist, I understand. But you’ve got to move on. Alright anak? We love you.” “Alright mom, I’ll do my best. I’ll keep in touch and everything. Mahal na mahal kita ina at ama.” With those last words, Richard started to board the plane to San Francisco.

In the plane, Richard felt so naucious. He thought to himself, “That’s what you get for not going with your mom or dad anywhere. Psh, always wanting to stay at home; that’s poopie.” Richard started to get tired in the plane and then dreamt peacefully as the music in the plane drifted him to sleep.

“All passengers please stay in your seats as the plane lands. All seat belts be kept on at all times.” Richard woke up to the bumping as the plane as it landed. “Oh gosh, we’re here. New life, new whatever.” He thought to himself. Richard started to wonder around the San Francisco International Airport and saw all these pretty girls walking around. “See?” he thought to himself. “So many pretty girls here, I think I’ll fit in fine.” He went to the luggage pick up and waited for about 7 minutes until all his luggage came. As he was walking towards a café, someone covered his eyes. “HEY! STOP IT! I DEMAND YOU UNCOVER YOUR HANDS OUT OF MY EYES RIGHT NOW!” Then with a chuckle, his two favorite collage-aged cousins: Rowen and Ronald. “Jeeze Richard, you’re just to serious nowadays aren’t you?” his cousins laughed. “Shut up, and help me load my goddamn luggage into the car.” “YES SIR! WE’RE ON IT NOW!” Richard’s cousins started marching to the car with Richard’s luggage. “Sheeze, they can never take me seriously, can they?” he thought to himself. Richard went into his cousins Nissan Skyline 1200 and fell asleep with a jet lag.

“Yo Richard, wake your little Pino butt up.” Richard woke up to the sound of his cousins hoarse voice, When Richard opened his eyes and focused his vision, he saw a huge sign that said, “WELCOME RICHAAAARD DARLING!” As soon as he focused on the sign, he started laughing and turning red. “Hey Richard!” his Uncle Sam said, “come over here. I need to talk to you about settling down here.” Richard walked over to his Uncle Sam and sat down.